I feel like the biggest fucking failure ever. I feel like I’m stuck and I have nowhere to go, my job makes me feel suicidal when I’m there and then they give me so few shifts I’m almost never there so I have no sense of schedule and my boyfriend has been leading me on for two months and is now treating me like absolute garbage and broke up with me ontop of it, my great grandpa is dying in a retirement home away from his wife whom has dementia and I had to drop out of school because I didn’t have the money, and holy fuck this girl I keep thinking about I cannot stop thinking about her. She committed suicide in may, she went to my school and we played sports together. She was in grade ten. School just started here again last week and all I can think about is the fact that she would’ve been in grade eleven this year and I feel terrible because I feel like I could’ve or should’ve done something