I feel like a human eyesore. I looked at myself in the full length mirror on my college dorm door and saw my full figure for the first time in a while and I swear I’ve already lost weight even though it’s been less than five days. I’m such a pathetic human being and I feel ashamed to exist in public. I can’t even go to the cafeteria to eat because I don’t want others to perceive me in any capacity. I’m so rail thin and scrawny and I hate this is how others see me for the first time. It sickens me that I exist like this. I shouldn’t be allowed to exist like this between my acne, acne scars, skinny figure, shitty clothes, shitty hairstyling, all of it. I cringe when I imagine others talking to me in the third person. How can anyone talk to me without thinking unkindly of how I appear on the outside? It’s all my fault, all my flaws are preventable but I’ve done jackshit to fix myself. I hate myself and everything I represent. I am pathetic.