Rant #20532

I was raped, and my ex watched it happened. nothings been the same for me sense, I avoid areas like its the end of the world, there certain things I used to do every single day that I just cant do anymore- this isn't the first time I have been assaulted but its the first time its felt real and I haven't been able to cope with it. I feel stuck and like my body isn't my own and I cant get away from my ex. I don't feel like myself what so ever. I feel gone.