I’ve noticed that whenever I have a long piece of string or ribbon I wrap i around my neck even when I’m doom scrolling and I don’t feel that suicidal I do have thoughts but it’s not that serious but it’s like I do it subconsciously and it’s so annoying it’s not like I do it till I’m about to pass out I wrap it around my neck pull a bit and then unwrap I hate when I do it but sometimes when I do it I feel nothing it like resets my emotions or I remember I once pulled till I could barely breathe but that was when I was in the trenches I’ve gotten better I don’t do it that often but I only remember because I did it today but it’s not like I’m doing on purpose I’m doing like some sort of messed up routine
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