I just relapsed again. I’m in an awkward situation because I know I can’t comfortably go to anyone. I have three friends and one is my bestfriend, she gets angry whenever I talk bad about myself, like I’ve been feeling insecure about my weight, when I comment on it she gets really angry with me because she also takes it as a slight at her. And now I relapsed, my brothers will make fun of me and my mom will make it about herself, and so will my bestfriend by again somehow thinking that getting mad at me will train me out of struggling. I’m scared of calling or texting support lines, and I don’t think anywhere online allows these kinds of discussions so I’m just sitting here waiting for the bleeding to pass and feeling miserable. A part of me wishes someone would just feel bad for me and be nice to me. I think that’s the issue people have with me anyways