honestly, i think i have been suffering with depression. i had 3 friends who genuinely appreciated me and considered me as their best friend but then i pushed them away and made up excuses after i moved houses (i didnt move schools) and i regret it so much. i miss my best friend. but shes moved on now. i just want to tell her im sorry that i was such a bitch to her. my mood swings are so bad and i cry all the time. i think i may have relocation depression bcuz i miss my old house sm that i cry abt it on a daily basis and its been half a year btw. i feel horrible about myself and ive failed some of my subjects because of my mental health. i feel so lazy, useless, stupid, and disgusting. i used to self harm but now im clean but recently i had a dream that i had cut my left wrist. i dont know if it is a sign or not but i dotn want to go back to self harming. i think i need to get a diagnosis but idk.