So like im big, like fat basically and I just like idk my whole life since I was 4 has been consumed by my weight, like ive been bullied for it since 7 like a guy woukd always whisper in my ear that I was ugly and fat aswell as this other girl. And in 7th people would call me fat bitch and like because im black they would say black bitch, or describe me and the big black girl. So like that's my whole life. And so my mom want to put me in a gym, which is fine but today she was looking at a photo of me when I was 12 and she said wow she used to be so skinny , now she's fat. Which made me sad bc like when I was 12 she woukd also call me big like wjat? I do want to lose weight its just that I want her to love me and see me as beautiful at every stage of my life. Like she once said I cang be a musician or lawyer if I look the way I do at 13, it just hurt to see that nobody at school finds me beautiful neither does my mom.