When I was around 10 or 11, I let my dog lick somewhere around my thigh because I was exposed to stuff like that and remembering what I did makes me have huge anxiety attacks. I stopped because i realized it was wrong and didnt know how much it would affect me at the time because I was already dealing with horrible thoughts. I feel unforgettable and I feel like a monster, the dog has pass a while ago because of old age and every time i try to remember good memories of him, I remember what I did and it sends me into a spiral. I feel horrible. I'm 14 now but this still dawns on me.
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