I feel like if I place one toe out of line, my partner will leave me. If I'm not perfect, its over. And I hate it. Why would you let me fall in love with you just to dangle it over my head? Just fucking leave me already. And make it hurt. So I know not to do this stupid shit anymore. I know I'm a burden, I know Im fucked up. I hate hiding it knowing as soon as they find out, its over.