Am I even worth of an existence? Is my life a joke? Why does everything I do, someone will always do it better. School? I'm worse. Health? I'm worse. Comparing traumas to see if I am worthy enough of telling myself it's not my fault? I get even worse because everything. EVERY. SINGLE. THING. I'M. SICK. OF. IM TIRED OF SPENDING HOURS AND HOURS DAYS AND NIGHTS YEARS AFTER YEARS PRACTICING AND MEMORIZING THINGS, JUST FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN PRACTICE OR MEMORIZE EVERY SINGLE LINE. BE BETTER THAN ME. I really can't have happiness, can't I? I even bet there's going to be a rant out there worse than mine, better than mine, never something to be good enough or worse just to be noticed. to be praised. to not be made fun of or misunderstood. Everything is my fault, isn't it? I feel and am so pathetic having to resort to this, this will soon be blocked, as well as my feelings for a request to be validated, to be told that I'm good enough, no. Never, ever. Yet Forever.