I hate myself, there is nothing to like about me. I get mad at everyone and everything so easily. I expect people to be nice when i cant even look at them when talking. Im disgusting and perverted about basically anything. I wish i wasnt me, my parents dont deserve to have a son like me, they deserve someone who actually has dreams, leaves their room and enjoys life. Instead of me who cant look at my parents, dosent leave his room and one of the only dreams ive had got ruined by AI so now i dont want to do anything with my life. Im not smart enough to do anything and ive ruined my brain with bad habits. I eat so little that i almost throw up if I ever eat anything substantial which makes me eat less, I hate eating, I wish i didnt have to eat. I hate waking up for school, i hate waking up in general sometimes. My brother is in the hospital right now and i would rather it be me because he dosent deserve to be injured, he hasnt done anything wrong to deserve what is happening right now.