I am disabled. I am constantly in pain, unable to do things others my age are capable of, incapable of commitment. That takes such a toll on my health, and sometimes I wish I was never even born, as all I give to this world is a useless body to take care of. That being said, schoolwork is so hard for me. There's times where it comes easier and some when it comes harder. I had work over the summer (since school screwed me over and put me behind). I didn't get much done. Maybe 3 legitimate books. The rest I cheated on (not the tests, only the work). I feel so much guilt, but I was in such a bad mental state I literally begged God to let me pass away in my sleep and I couldn't see any way out. I felt so much guilt I admitted it to my teacher. She told me she should tell the principal but she wouldn't because I passed all my tests and I'm legitimately regretful. I'm now home with my mom and she says everything is fine, but it isn't. I'm useless. I'm ugly, fat, lazy...I just want to die.