I don't think anyone in this world could understand me. Not even the most educated person on earth. I don't understand what is so wrong with me. I hold these beliefs, those beliefs I hold are wrong and messed up. It's screwing up my brain and I feel insane. I see this same thing following me. I'm convinced it is actually the embodiment of each of my friends. I'm convinced all my friends are one person who's able to split into multiple at once. That they are spying on me as this figure. I thought it was a psychosis, but then again how am I so conscious of the fact that this can't be true. That it's all in my head, yet no matter how much I say it when it happens again, when I get another sign that I'm right I believe it, I've never been so terrified. I'm petrified even. I don't understand what's wrong with me or why my brain is wired in such a sick twisted way. I'm a disgusting human for believing in what I do. Nothing in life matters to me. Only the fact that I'm actively losing it.