“Dove” Consider this the last thing I’ll ever say to you. I understand why you said what you said to me. What I told you that I was doing to myself broke your heart, that’s why you told me those things. Like in those movies where the kid tells the dog that they hate them so that the dog will run away and not look for them. That’s why you blocked me when I went to bed. You wanted me to forget you like I made you up in my mind like some lost fever dream. You wanted to believe that you made me up, because my actions made you feel like you were the opposite of every negative thing you told yourself. You didn’t want me to look for you which is why you abandoned me, when I forgave you, you wanted me to hate you, you felt like you deserved my hatred. It will be easier for to believe that I died, so you won’t have to worry about me anymore,because I know you do. You hated that I knew you so well. -S