I think I have better now like you wanted for me. I guess, but I don’t think that you like knowing that It with someone else but still suffering? Deep down there is apart of you that still loves me and you hate that part of yourself. So, I won’t look for you anymore. My presence only reminds you of what you felt you broke. So consider this my symbolical suicide letter and if I decide to go through with it you won’t have to know that I did, it’s better that way.-S