School is starting tomorrow and I’m going to be back to no friends and feeling empty asf like I don’t even want to live or care abt anything and think abt sh the whole time feeling ugly asf prob getting bullied a bit and to top it of STUDY STRESS I feel so bad my mum calling from work asking what I’m doing and here I am trying to find ways to kms or planning to get into a car accident but I prob won’t kms as always.I really hate this I just wonna graduate but I don’t bc I hate growing up and I don’t like the future many it won’t happen idk I promised I’ll live through this year but man living is just like so not feeling cute anymore 🥀.some part of me hope I’ll make new friends with the new kids idk I’ll js be a loser again prob and go to the library and finally return the books I borrowed,to be honest teh Only thing keeping me alive rn is the library or else I like js wonna die you know?.I had like 3 panic attacks in that place BAD ones.js wonna grow up but ik kms is the only way.