if i hadn't taken so long to realize, would you have loved me to? can it really just be me that's been suffocating? i think about your words to me often, sometimes you say things that make me wonder. but i wonder if that's just how you talk to everyone. i wonder if you could have ever seen me as your forever. i saw you as mine from the moment we met, i swear, i just didn't know what it meant at the time. i know i'm too late now, but was there ever a chance? i don't know if a positive answer would help or hurt. it's probably for the best that you don't experience the trainwreck that is me. your friendship is worth more to me than soft brushes of our hands. i would rather keep you by my side in this way than have to deal with the shame and awkwardness of having confessed knowing i don't know how to love properly. doesn't stop me from thinking what could have been.. ...in another life, do we dance?