You ever just want the world to disappear? Ever just want the pain to end? Every day I fight a battle with myself and I think I'm losing. I hate wanting to cry at the drop of a hat. I hate not liking myself, let alone loving myself. I hate me and no one sees. I just want to be able to read all day or just play games or just NOT deal with being social or with other people. I don't want to be alive and I can't die and I have too much responsibility and I just want to disappear.