I'm so tired. I'm so tired of thinking about my relationship with my mother, which can never get better. This fear, pain, heartbreak, sadness, and anger are killing me. I can't get used to it. I was really about to fight her back this time when she hit me; I would have protected myself, but I was afraid again and i let her attack me while i was trying to keep my face straight. Idk i just hate this woman that's all.