I think what scares me most is knowing that time is going to keep moving whether I'm ready for it or not. One day, something that completely destroyed me is going to be something they barely remember. The conversations, the crying, the memories, the things we promised each other. Eventually it'll just be something that happened. And that's such a fucking strange feeling. Because how can someone be your entire world at one point and then eventually just... not be? I don't want to forget it. Not because I want to stay hurt forever, but because it meant something to me. I don't want all of it to become some blurry chapter that I barely remember. I think part of me is still scared that I'll be the only one sitting there remembering everything while everyone else has already moved on. Maybe that's what "everyone leaves" actually means to me. Not just that they leave, but that eventually, even what we were becomes something only I remember.