Rant #1916

I’m (new) Hellenic polytheist and I worship aphrodite, and I have an altar of her in my room. it’s been 5 months since I’ve prayed to her or made an offering, I feel so bad for not doing anything but I’m so burnt out. I see people saying that they feel refreshed or happy after they pray to their deity or god(dess) but I just feel disgusted and uncomfortable about myself after I pray to her. dont me wrong-I love Aphrodite. She’s so beautiful and sweet but I get this uncomfortable feeling about myself that I’m doing “too much” I don’t know how to explain it but I feel so weird praying to her.