i love him and its consuming my life i cant do anything and im so cared of losing him but we will have to part ways in some way or the other because of circumstances and it sucks because i hate myself and i hate my life and hes kind of the only thing thats holding me together right now or at least distracts me from the work thats been piling up over the past couple of weeks and the fact that im basically incapable and kind of a horrible and useless person so im dreadfully worried about what will happen once we stop talking and im worried that he will find someone so much better so much sooner but i dont want him to move on without me but im sure he will because he is all settled in at pune and probably will meet a bunch of new people and im just sad i really wanted to be his girlfriend and be with him because we are so good together but theres so much he doesnt know about me and i dont know if those things would be a deal breaker for him directly or indirectly but i really want us