i cant do anything right i just want to kill myself im a horrible girlfriend. im turning 15 in 9 days. i feel so pathetic and useless. im gunna kill myself its all my body is good for. i dont want to get older because the older i get the less of an excuse i have for being a fucking loser. what will i do when i dont have someone being able to help me all the time other wise ill probably hurt myself? i wanna stop so bad but i cant. i cant bring myself to take my medicine. im so useless. i just wanna die already. nothing is even that wrong with my life. im just a lousy teenager who cant preform on their own. i cant wait until i can kill myself. i genuinely cant because i cant stand feeling like this every other day and feeling like im just rotting from the inside out every fucking day.