I wish the past couple years were just a nightmare I could just wake up from, why do things keep going wrong, what do you do when you know something bad is gonna happen but you can't do anything to stop it, and the days going forward are going to be full of even more shame and misery than I already feel right now, what did I do to deserve this, what's the point of trying to keep going, ever since getting into college I've felt such intense mental distress I feel unwell but don't know what to do about it, I just want life to get better