for ten years, I have planned to enlist in the marine corps. after high school, I got into things i shouldn’t have and when I got better … i realized if i enlisted, would I come back from combat and be able to have a German shepherd as a dog, so I used my dog as an excuse just to fulfill that purpose. Now that my dog has passed… I came to the realization that it’s now or never considering the age cut off to enlist. I always knew I wanted to be married with someone as partners in everything life has to offer. I have this fear of bleeding out in a field knowing i could die alone with not one woman that I have experienced love with. I’d hate to die knowing I never had love. I don’t mean to pressure the girl but it felt so real that I couldn’t let it go. I thought to myself…”could she be the one?” “Could she be the one to present herself maturely with my reputation” “would she be able to sit pretty while I have an undying urge to provide”