When i was 16-17 yo I wanted to be the best in my class so bad I used to learn everything ahead, I fell into such a deep hole it wasn't even about academics, anymore I stopped eating, I wanted to be the skinniest, my only food was couple cups of 3in1 coffee with milk, i was doing home workouts only cuz i was embarrassed to go to a gym, and i did become the best and also lost a bunch of weight, everyone congratulated me but was it really something I worked for or just tortured myself into
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