ifl i dont rly belong anywhere. i dont feel like myself at home cuz my family consists of hot tempered judgemental ppl who constantly rage over every small thing while im the only one who takes everything in and stays calm. i dont rly get angry so instead of fighting back i js take the blame for everyone and it makes me feel like shit sometimes. i also feel like i dont rly belong in school cuz my friends all hv similar interests and freedom but i dont. my parents r strict so theres alot of things that everyone has tried that i havent. i dont go out alot w friends even tho im like turning 20 cuz i hv like some sort of guilt and fear that ill get crashed out at by my family who constantly guilt trips me everytime i dont go out w them. i hvent gotten into a relationship either cuz every time a person i take interest in starts to like me back i back out cuz im afraid that i js disappoint them like how i disappoint my family