I really liked her. I dated her but it ended short. It was my fault. I wanna die, I just wanna leave my embarrassing world. I seriously need help but I don't wanna seem pathetic. I have cats to take care of. I lost my kitten. I lost the girl of my world because of a small breakup. We're friends but I wanna be more. I'm too clingy that I wanna die. I'm so disgusting. If I told anyone, they'll probably tell my mom and my mom would buy me therapy, take away my device, or possibly the mental hospital.