I know for a fact I love him more than he will ever love me. I know he is disgusted by my past body count (10) and now that he is busier he will have more time to think about it and he will hate me more. I don’t think I’ll love again after him, I’ve been used and abused far too much and I don’t want to ever let anyone in again after everything I’ve been through. I’ll never be able to play our games again, I’ll never be able to enjoy things the same. It just breaks my heart every time.