I see all the photos my friends sent and posted and all im left feeling is empty. They all look like theyve had a great summer wow. Im wrong for fewling jealous when i dont even ask people to go out but i cant even pretend im having the summer i want because im lay in a bed in pain and no one cares. I couldnt go camping this year because of my dads health, and i feel some sort of upset towards him but that makes me feel even shittier because hes the one thats been in the hospital and i cant blame him for his health aside from the drinking. Ive just been rotting inside, feeling all miserable and sobbing to myself as i scroll on my phone and computer for days on end wow its really a sign to kill myself. I have a week-ish left. This is my last summer where i get to spend it having fun and ive wasted it being miserable and worrying. Maybe if i grip my neck tighter i wont worry so much. Ive been out with a friend ONCE to get krushems and they had none. What sins couldve led 2 this point