Man first this bullshit with a ex and then the bullshit at work and then I'm finally like wow maybe I do like someone and wanted to introduce them to like the family due to a wedding it ends with them being kinda rude about not wanting to go / annoyed about it and am I the problem ?? Is there something wrong with me that I'm unpleasant to be around or just straight up gross looking that no one wants to be with me ? I hate the fact that I have to feel this way but holy fuck I wanna be happy, I want to look forward to talking to someone about anything really our days / planning date nights or movie nights like all of my friends get to experience it but when is it my turn ???? - p