I can’t do anything by myself without filling up with guilt. Anything that is expressive is guilt worthy to me. I wanted to go for a walk them feel bad because if I go alone one day I’ll regret it If I do something I want one day I’ll be thinking that someone knew better. If I don’t listen to what everybody says then life will take them away from me and I’ll die alone thinking about everything I missed. If I get mad at someone I can never forgive myself right or wring so I have to change mentality. I just don’t want to be alone forever but I just need to do something by myself without needing a second opinion sometimes but I’m trapped in a cycle of i dont even know what