To be honest i dont even know if i have a right to be sad, like at all. Compared to my peers i barely do anything and im still struggling, not only that my stupidity has made me someone so untrust worthy to them to the point the things that they started to avoid me, ignore me, or be disapointed if they get assigned to work with me. Ive been wanting to change myself and work harder but it feels like no matter how much more harder i work or how much more effort i put into something they would still be avoiding and dodging me. It makes me feel so lonley and stupid. And i know that my problem isnt as harsh or difficult as others and that just makes it worse for me, sometimes i wonder if i even have a right to telk this to anyone, even typing this out feels like something i shouldn't be doing. If anyone sees this, what do you think?