I love my bsf to suicide a few months back and I feel like everyone around me is getting tired of me because I cannot move on, I can't stop making jokes to cope, I can't stop watching our videos together, I can't stop talking about him, I can't stop thinking of him. My alive bsf is definitely getting tired and drained because of it I know I have several people to lean on for help but in the end I get annoying with it. I just want to hang myself and rest. I don't care for what I'll achieve or where I'll visit i just want to feel okay again every thing is just short term distractions and i can't keep living like this.
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