DO NOT READ IF SENSITIVE I GUESS... I was severly depressed when i was 11, i planned how to suicide, planned how to run away from home. I did the rubber method (a type of self harm) and stopped when i realized my mum was getting suspicous. im 12 now, i guess im not depressed anymore, but i still have mental health issues. sometimes i stare at myself in teh mirror, thinking why am i like this, why am i so ugly, so useless, stupid, dumb, who in the world would care if i just died? but im scared of dying. i dont want to die, but i want to. i feel like my friends hate me, i feel like veryone hates me, everyone talks aout me behind my back, maybe the world woul dbe better without me, a burden to everyone. My mum wouldnt need to buy things for me and waste money, my friends wouldnt need to waste energy fake smiling and laughing and being nice to me when maybe they just want me dead and gone. Yeah the word limit is kinda reached so yeah. I WAS IN A HURRY I SPELT LOTS OF WORDS WRONG IM SORRY!!