i hope reading this helps someone. whoever u are, u got this. don't give up. i know we hear this everywhere these days, but being alive & u, yourself, is a miracle. humans; it's so magical that our brain, our body, works to protect us & sometimes it doesn't, but don't let it hold u back. make a name for urself. u don't need recognition. look, u have 1 life, right? instead of waiting for the right whatever to magically appear in ur life, just start becoming the person u want to be. even if it's by a little bit, i know ur struggling, act maybe i don't know at all what ur going through, but, i understand how hard it may be & how u can't explain it to anyone. but u WILL get through it. if u can't be anything, at least be a fighter. don't just give up. u already probably feel like a loser, but don't prove urself right. be anything but a loser. i believe in u. u prolly think, why does some stranger even care? bc i'm there rn & im with u. u got this. & i hope u find ur happiness soon. :)