I am so miserable i have had depression since i was 10 years old after an accident in 4th grade summer vacation after that it all changed i started fighting through my life rather than enjoying it. I had always been one of the best students in my school i even became the best before i moved into middle school. Middle school… that’s when it got worse i thought elementary was horrible people were cruel and bullied me mocked me but i was 11 I didn’t understand yet. I was also dating this girl i loved- No I still do I would take a bullet for her. But her life is so much worse than mine she’s been SA’d many times and lives in a highly abusive house hold and moved out and lost any friends she had and she’s always grounded. I’ve made sure she’s comfortable she is now. I think..? But honestly I’m in the verge of suicide my first year of middle school destroyed me. Now after that I am in a double-honors class and every i feel like i keep getting more stupid and stupid. I cant… I cant…