My parents gave me a tablet with 2 because I always cried and screamed the whole time, the first thing I did is coloring random drawings in an app, I don't really remember everything but when I was 6, I saw isabell from animal crossing doing a" QnA" or something, I was like "what's a QnA?, let's take a look! " when I clicked that..it's so disgusting so i won't explain it. i was interested for literally no reason, it always continued that I even grew up with it. I regret it. I literally hate myself of the top of my whole heart because of being weird. I didn't even stopped by 6 - 10 yo. I sometimes search disgusting things on Google but when I almost click on enter, I always throw my phone on my bed to stop it. that's why I sometimes wish I could die but I'm scared. I sometimes think I don't deserve to have a family, food, things I always wished for, a girlfriend, friends, almost everything. I don't deserve everything.