There is only one person in this world who I feel can truly understand what is going on in my mind right now, but I physically can not bring myself to reach out to her. She was my friend of 7 years, and despite betraying my trust and using me for my selflessness one too many times, I still feel like it was my fault. I have other people to talk to but it doesn’t feel the same. They are friends with each other. I’m just the older coworker who happens to listen to the same music. I still talk to someone from high school occasionally, but he has his own life. I can’t open up to him like I did with her because he genuinely would not understand any of it. He doesn’t know what I have done, or what I have gone through in the last 7 years. She did.
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