Rant #16888

Everyone sayd im the bully and angry sibling in my family cuz i often say mean shit to my younger sister and I know im in the wrong but I never felt the same love or treatment from my parents ever since she was born and no matter how much I try I never felt love towards her ever again I dont know what to do honestly i feel like a terrible person so how do I get closer to her or anything even if it means to fake it