I can’t do this anymore honestly, it just gets worse as time passes, school’s hell for me, I hate what I study, I hate my classmates I hate my teachers, I hate people there, it’s just so toxic, people bullied me, I don’t want to return there, I’m trans, people calling me by my death name are killing me, it started like “fine I got this,” to a whole new level where it’s destroying me, I feel like everything it just useless at this point, every thread I desperately try to cling on breaks or isn’t strong enough to hold me, I’m sinking down, and probably, after 4 years, of going up and down, I’ll touch the deepest and darkest place, by touching the seabed.