I feel like a failure in life at 19, it hurts so much. My parents never taught me things most people would learn before they even hit puberty, like making food or even taking a proper shower. Even now they still won't pay attention to me and I feel like I shouldn't care anymore because I'm the oldest but it hurts so much. My partner doesn't make me feel any better about it, if I have to be honest they control my life a lot for 6 years now, but make me feel crazy for thinking that. I'm not allowed to go outside, get a job, talk to anyone that is not them or they will get very angry at me and tell me I'm going behind their back or they will hurt themselves or me. And that I'm ungrateful for anything they have ever done for me, that I should be just a pet to them because I'd be no where and nothing without them. I don't have the skills to get a job or be on my own, I just feel dumb and weak, good for nothing. it feels like nothing will get better, I want to be like others my age. :(