The way people damaged me is just unforgivable. There is no amount of money that would compensate for the life and experiences i missed because of this. The biggest problem is now i am the biggest amounter to the problem i have now. I suffer because of my own actions, because of the damage they did. It's so hard to break free from their control. I am not sure if i can do it. I just feel like things will never be okay and i will never stop isolating.