I'm genuinely tired of living. It's not like i wanna die or anything (I'm scared of dyingi guess??) I just wanna... dissappear. Do whatever I want, whenever I want, be a ghost within the world. Im tired of feeling like a waste of air and being called lazy and just doing nothing all day. Im hoping that when school starts again I'll feel better (because days without a schedule are hard for me) but even then I hate it there too. I hate it everywhere. I hate most of my friends, i hate people, I hate my family, I hate breathing, I hate sleeping, I hate it. And the worst part is I CAN do something about it. I just won't. I dont wanna go back into therapy again because im a people pleaser and I dont tell the therapist about my issues even though I literally know its their job. Its weird I know but I cant help it. I cant vent to my friends because I already do it so often I feel like theyre tired of me. Idk what to do anymore. Maybe someday ill finally do something about it