i've felt like my mental health has been going down the drain after 3 years of social isolation. ive been stuck inside most of the time because i haven't been able to get a job so i can't afford to go uber and socialize. i don't have any in person friends who can help me and i don't have someone to teach me to drive. i've been scared and paranoid that i'll be stuck forever inside at home as if this is all my life is while everyone else gets their degree and lives a life they're proud of. i've never really had any friends consitently but when i see and hear that my friends get to go outside and do stuff or go to work i get so sad because what if i end up doing nothing. it makes me scared. i want to be someone who is in alive and in society instead of hidden away because i can't afford to exist publicly. i really just want to be able to do something someday instead of being kept inside most the time, but my mind always eats away im never going to get a job or be free.