Throughout my childhood, I was constantly ostracized and shamed for my height and weight, as I was a huge kid surrounded by mostly small Asian kids. I was bullied, excluded from games, and beaten up by older kids in the school when i tried to include myself. It made me feel like shit for many years, thinking I could never be loved. I was told at a young age by teachers and parents that I was seen as dangerous to the kids due to my size. I was always twice the height and weight of everyone else, and everyone assumed I was a bad kid due to my ADHD and dyslexia always getting me in trouble for being to squirmy and having bad grades. I have wanted to kill myself since I was 10, but haven’t, hoping and praying that someone will come to save me, but no one has. I’m 17 now and have made no forward movement as to be able to be confident in my own skin, and have no friends.