I just don't know how I'm feeling about myself for the past few days there are times when I loose hope about myself and think nothing matters at this point it has reached to an extent that i did experience my friends family and some close people never really saw me and were there for me .My parents are so judgemental and crude like sharinf anything is like the same statement being used against you in an argument plus i honestly think I was such a good and kins person in life that the people i knew plus my old friends used me and unlocked my insecurities at this point of life I'm really upset at everyone I'm the only person that people expect to be ok perfect and always smiling even when I'm not I have to act like I'm totally ok when I'm rlly not and sometimes it's ok not to be ok,but no one really listens or hears out i soemtimes i myself dont feel like the person i used to be.no own really cares or gives a fuck I always used to be so cheerful happy and joyous no matter what........