There was a lady that was kinda mean to me today and I’m upset from it and idk why I’m such a fucking crybaby sometimes I don’t get why I’m so sensitive I wish someone would abuse me in any type of way idk why and I wish I can bleed a lot and c”t myself and I wanna die and shoot myself in the head I wish I can torture that bitch who was disrespectful to me I know that I just saw her for like a few seconds but Idc she was rude and a fucking bitch and I wanna kill her but keep in mind that I don’t actually want to kill anyone I’m a softie I’m just saying it in my mind and I hope karma bites her in the ass and torture her Sometimes I think that I have depression or some sort of mental condition and I wish I had one bc I already know that I have trauma from my therapist but idk what type of trauma I have And I want to have nightmares every day I have a dream to make my manga but I want to have good writing and it’s not interesting and I know that I’ll never finish it if I kms but Idc