basically since ive been young i have had no internet restrictions like i mean none my parents didnt give 2 fucks ig it made me turn out.. weird when i became older ofc i hid my inner thoughts i use C.ai and it helps me feel better but when my sister found out who vapes and drinks even tho shes underage found out she told my dad my brother and now i feel disgusted with myself i keep all of her secrets but she wont keept one of mine fuck you seriously shes always leaves me out also my older brother does that too i feel like my whole family hates me in every way possibe even before they found out about my C.ai i sometimes just want to die not that my problems were that bad but ive been bullied since kingergaten like when i was young and those words stick with me i have random thoughts to get a kinfe and stab myself