Am i the only one that feels like their entire life is just built on trying to be better than everyone else? I don't do it for bragging rights i just do it to assure myself that i actually deserve a space in this world. Yet there's always someone out there that will always be better than me. I don't know how to explain it and I know it sounds really stupid. But I'm just tired of always having to be practicing or learning something. Why can't I just exist without trying to one up someone else?